I would say that I enjoy meeting new people and am quite extroverted, but there are days where I want to spend all day alone in solitude. To fully enjoy the time to myself, like a little break in midst of the noise around.
I really try not to go out on those days, as I know I won't be able to give my full attention to people when I'm talking to them, it feels as if my batteries terminally stuck at 1%, or I end up getting drained very quickly. My energy just isn't there, and I find difficulty in bringing it up.
Nonetheless some days I end up going out, like when my desire to play a sport overtakes my will to stay in solitude. I feel quite bad to whomever I speak with during this time since I know I wasn't able to give my full focus. How do I reduce this discrepency?
I sometimes ask myself when was the last time I spent in solitude. Even in the days I spend alone, I feel as if I am not fully encompassed since the presence of social media gives that sensation of always feeling connected. But I would much prefer to enjoy this kind of freedom truly alone, but I guess I'll be barred from this until my brain is hooked off of this crippling addiction. I've been trying to mediate this by putting my phone on Do Not Disturb for most of the day.
What do I do in solitude? Reflecting about certain things and consuming various forms of art. From books, movies, anime, shows, manga, writings, listening to music, and sometimes youtube. All are synonymous in the sense that they were crafted by the combination of the creators time and their excellence in the craft. But you don't want to over consume, and so its important consume in moderation, and it is a great way to gain clarity in your taste, as well as a mean to recharge yourself.
I see solitude as a break from all the noise in life, a momentary pause before stepping back into the rowdyness. I don't know why I need this nor why the desire comes, as I like being around people most of the time.